Broke and alone all the time...and plain ranting to GOD

What is the purpose of Aaron having a job and then never being home. I'm sick of this job that does not pay money and then makes him be at work all day and night. I hate how i have no family life. I wish also that God would take away the dreams of a baby that i dont have im never going to have one and they are so vivid i just cant take it anymore i cant i cant i hate waking up and realizing that it was a dream and that i dont have any kids and then having to hang out with peoples kids gosh get a life people i dont want to hear about how cute your kids are and i dont want to hear when are you going to have kids. Or why are u waiting i DONT WANT TO HEAR WHAT U THINK ABOUT MY LIFE just cause your in the kids club does not mean that everyone has to be in the club. or that if u have kids God will provide How about God gives a me a kid and then ill let him provide too. I know that it sounds mean and cruel but how can God make some people parents that suck and dont want the kids and then some people who might make great parents no kids. I dont want to say that God has a plan for your life. Well then God tell me when you think i might have a kid with the man i love so i can stop have this dream about a kid i have never had.